Technology vs Me
Sometimes I wish I wasn’t living in an age that is all about
technology. She says as she types on her laptop to post on her online blog that
she’ll check later on her smartphone to see how received it is.
I often sit on my lunch break scrolling between three apps,
sat at a table full of other people scrolling on their apps too. Breaking every
now and then for conversation as we all laugh at the fact we’re on our phones
and I hate it. I sit there and I think about all the productive stuff I could
be doing, I itch to write and I feel my time slipping away from me. I started
bringing my book to read but sometimes its too hard to concentrate when there
is chatter going on around. And then I feel guilty as it sits in my bag and I neglect
it for my phone.
My computer is chunky, its chunky but funky. Its old. I got
it when I was in college for my coursework. That was 7years ago now. Its temperamental,
slow, and heavy and ive looked at ones that would be ideal for me to take to
work so I could spend my time more productively writing. However I don’t currently
have the funds to afford a new laptop so instead I sit wishing I had a new one.
I also think I am personally attached to my current one and I know when I get a
new one my current one will not be disappearing any time soon. Shes stuck with
me through all my moves, shes reliable in some ways.
I used to write the majority of my poetry on my phone, the
word app is honestly my best friend and any writer/bloggers best friend when
they’re out and about. It is a life saver along with one drive. Thankyou Microsoft.
But I haven’t really been inspired for poetry recently and most of my
inspiration currently comes from when im behind a keyboard. Once again going
back to wishing I wasn’t living in an age that is all about technology.
I write letters to my Grandma in England every few weeks. I
started it when I first moved out to New Zealand 4years ago and I keep every
letter. I know I can buy a phone plan and ring her every week but personally I like
getting excited and checking the mail, I like seeing my name hand written on
the letter. I like taking time out of my day to put pen to paper and I like the
fact that one day, when she’s not there to write to I will still have all her
letters and stories to me.
I feel guilty whenever im out and Im seen taking photos on
my phone, yes I have cameras, I do like to invest in good cameras as I am interested
in photography/videography however some days I just want to whip out my phone
and use the camera on their to snap the perfect pic. I feel judged doing it in
some places, and heck sometimes I judge myself. But I have to realise that I do
live in a world heavily invested in technology.
We need it to survive.
We need it in our lives.
And as much as sometimes I wish I wasn’t and I wish everything was pen and paper black and white board games, its not.
We need it to survive.
We need it in our lives.
And as much as sometimes I wish I wasn’t and I wish everything was pen and paper black and white board games, its not.
But I will never stop asking my 11year old cousin to play a board game with me over playing on his xbox. Because I grew up with cards, dominos, and board games whenever a family member came over. I want him to have a snippet of that from me too.
Its hard being stuck in the middle. I’m from a generation
where the only computer we had growing up was in my dads office and we weren’t allowed
on it. Then when we did get a computer it was in the kitchen and we were all allowed
an hour on it each. Our first gaming device was a Gameboy that was bought for
all of us to share, the same with the play station. Sharing between four
limited out time and the rest of the time we were outside playing games. The
first phone I got was a flip phone when I went to high school and data wasn’t even
a thing. I look at peoples siblings, my younger family members and I wish they
had the same experience with technology. Then I get scared for my children, and
how I want them to see the world. I try and limit my use on social media, and
especially on my phone in public because I want to raise a child where I can
hand them a book or toy when we’re out to eat. Not an ipad or my phone because they’ve
seen mummy on it all the time and want it too. This is my goal, I know it’s
hard to achieve when everything is on your phone and within such quick reach
however I try my best. And I will continue to try my best.
Technology is actually really damaging for my mental health I’ve learnt how to deal with some aspects around it but my only solution for the rest is to cut my time. Hence why I try so hard.
Technology is actually really damaging for my mental health I’ve learnt how to deal with some aspects around it but my only solution for the rest is to cut my time. Hence why I try so hard.
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