As I entered 2017 I starting thinking about my current mindset vs my mindset entering 2016 and the things I have learnt.

When I entered 2016 I felt excited, I was seeing my family soon, I was traveling soon, I was going to be reunited with some people that I had spoken so highly off. I couldn’t wait. 

Roll 6months forward and I had suddenly realised the people I had spoken so highly of didn’t care to invite me back into their lives, I was more appealing to them when I was 12,000 miles away than when I was round the corner. But I had gained an extra family member and gained the title of auntie, so with every bad, comes a good. I had to learn to adapt myself back to English me, and with this I started reinventing myself.

I invested in a little bit of fashion, I now own more makeup than I ever thought I would in my life and my blog is one of my favourite things I have going.
But most importantly, I learnt to love myself.

Id always heard the phrases ‘to love someone else you have to first love yourself.’ But I never truly knew what it felt like when you love yourself.

I learnt its liking who you are, I no longer am interested/involved in petty drama, I instead just want to drink and be merry. Ive started dressing so I always feel fabulous no matter the occasion, ive started taking more spontaneous trips. Started being more confident in myself, although don’t expect me to answer my phone I don’t think my anxiety will ever get over that fear. But for once in my life I didn’t look at myself and see self-doubt, see hatred and I surrounded myself with a couple people who would pick my up rather than leaving me while I was down.
For the first time in 20years I didn’t look at myself and feel like I was the worst person in the world and it was no wonder I didn’t have friends.
I saw love and happiness and a smile that I want to keep and share.

I finally understood the phrase loving yourself. And I couldn’t be happier.

Cut the negative out and the positives will automatically come to you.

Make 2017 your year, and learn to love yourself.