Heartbreak vs heart breaking

I recently had a v.good friend experience having their heartbreak and I felt so bad and helpless as ive never had my heart broke before that all I could was feel sadness and try and give advice from reading about a broken heart. But I don’t think having your heart broke is the worst kind of pain.

I feel heartbreak is like getting a wound; it hurts like hell at first, you don’t know if youll get over the pain as its just never ending throbbing. But after a while the pain starts to fade and you start living with this extra part of you. And soon the wound is completely healed and you have a scar that you occasionally look at and run your finger over wincing as you remember the unbearable pain you once felt.

However feeling your heartbreaking is the worse kind of pain. Its like getting a wound, and instead of waiting for the wound to heal up. You find yourself stabbing more and more at the wound creating a bigger hole in your heart and the pain continues and worsens. It feels like its never going to stop and you just keep picking, but one day it will. One day it will feel like heartbreak and youll find yourself running your finger over a scar, but instead of a scar it’s a part of your body that is missing as it left with the thing that was breaking your heart.

I am currently experiencing my heart breaking and im spending a lot of time not sleeping and crying. But I know my friend who is experiencing heartbreak has also spent a lot of time not sleeping and crying, so least now we can relate our sadness.

As I was creating this blog post in my head and putting my thoughts into words I started thinking about the scene in Inside Out where the worlds Riley had created start falling apart, and I never thought about how much my brain relates to that scene at this current point in my life.

Like I said Ive never experience my heartbreak so I cant speak for this side of things, but these are my thoughts as I sit struggling to deal with the feeling of my heart breaking.