Last words and kindness.
I know most people always see grandads as like a support
member of the team, you have the main players being your mother and farther and
then your grandparents are the support.
However my grandad had always been more than a support, he was a main player; for reason that are not to be shared on my blog. It didn’t hit me until recently that although I saw him every week he never really said the words ‘love you.’ And it never crossed my mind because he always showed it in everything he did.
However my grandad had always been more than a support, he was a main player; for reason that are not to be shared on my blog. It didn’t hit me until recently that although I saw him every week he never really said the words ‘love you.’ And it never crossed my mind because he always showed it in everything he did.
But the last time I saw him alive, It hit me how ill he was
looking all of a sudden. My heart started breaking and I was struggling to
think positive. But I didn’t realise how scared he must have been feeling that
way. And as I left, I went to give him a kiss and he said the words ‘love you’
as I walked away.
And in that moment I realised how important last words can mean to someone. Id visited him so many times in hospital and he would give me the standard see you next time or giving me his orders because he was always so confident that hed see me next time. This day it was clear he wasn’t sure and it was clear he wanted to make sure I knew. And after he passed it upset me/made me happy that the last thing this great man ever said to me was that he loved me.
I always make sure I tell my boyfriend I love him before I go to sleep just in case. I always think it would be nice for him to know the last thing I said to him is such an important phrase. But I never realised the effects of last words due to never having experienced it before.
Its moments like this that make me take a step back and wonder what effects my words have on people whether they will be the last or the first. Be careful of what you say and only try to say kind things where you can.
Because even if it’s not the last words, you also don’t know what’s going on in the other person’s life at the time you decided to take a jab at them.
During having to come to terms with death and aspects of it happening in my life I had a similar situation happen which made everything 100% more stressful and my nights more sleepless. So respect people when they say they don’t want to be involved and are trying to take a step back. Don’t keep coming at them with your knife.
And in that moment I realised how important last words can mean to someone. Id visited him so many times in hospital and he would give me the standard see you next time or giving me his orders because he was always so confident that hed see me next time. This day it was clear he wasn’t sure and it was clear he wanted to make sure I knew. And after he passed it upset me/made me happy that the last thing this great man ever said to me was that he loved me.
I always make sure I tell my boyfriend I love him before I go to sleep just in case. I always think it would be nice for him to know the last thing I said to him is such an important phrase. But I never realised the effects of last words due to never having experienced it before.
Its moments like this that make me take a step back and wonder what effects my words have on people whether they will be the last or the first. Be careful of what you say and only try to say kind things where you can.
Because even if it’s not the last words, you also don’t know what’s going on in the other person’s life at the time you decided to take a jab at them.
During having to come to terms with death and aspects of it happening in my life I had a similar situation happen which made everything 100% more stressful and my nights more sleepless. So respect people when they say they don’t want to be involved and are trying to take a step back. Don’t keep coming at them with your knife.
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